Just a basic person

The eye appointment went well – they measured and remeasured my eyes – I looked through a bunch of machines in different rooms and talked with the surgeon. I\’m a basic person. Don\’t give me too many choices or I get confused. Apparently, there are 3 different types and before they got to the 2nd one, I told them \”I just want the one that medicare approves\” thinking that would eliminate my choices. Well, there are 3 choices within that first choice. Due to astigmatism, I will still have to wear eyeglasses which for me, is no big deal. I wear them already. So, do I prefer to see far away or up close. I choose up close. I want to read again – I want to crochet again and sew again. Nevertheless, my eyesight will be very good regardless of having to wear eyeglasses. I remember once when my 3 boys were little and I got contact lenses. They were under 6 and one of them told me with big tears in his blue eyes, 

\”You don\’t look like our mommy anymore.\” 

I admit I\’m a sap so I wore them rarely and the contacts soon dried up in their case. I preferred my glasses anyway. My mom used to tell me, as a young girl, 

\”Boys rarely make passes at girls who wear glasses.\” 

Isn\’t that awful? I didn\’t need glasses until I was in my 30\’s but still, times have sure changed. My mom was all about outward appearances and first impressions. When I did start wearing glasses, I had 3 kids and had many years under my belt in therapy to get over some of her toxic beliefs while growing up on appearances and being \”lady-like\” etc. See, the deal was, I was a daddy\’s girl – I liked what my dad liked. He liked cars, so I liked cars. He liked the outdoors and hiking and so did I. He hated the Oscars, and so did I. I just thought my dad was the best!  My sister was a girly girl like my mom and both of them were always trying to change me into THEM! I have way more memories of being with my dad, being myself than I do with my mom and my sister. 

Like I said, I am a basic person. Simple and I like being that way. I\’m proud to be more like my dad than my mom anyway. 

I was sent a recent photo of my niece\’s 2 children that I am not allowed to see anymore and I am tired of pursuing it. Here they are at their mommy\’s gravesite. They have grown so much since the last time I saw them. They look clean and well and I am pleased with that. 

Still, their mom died too young (age 29) How do depressed, recovering addicts get help if everything is locked down? She was hopeless, alone, and died from an overdose in her daughter\’s bedroom. It will be a year this Nov 18. 

Speaking of that same side of my family, my cataract surgery will conflict with the scattering of my sister\’s ashes on Sept 8. She died 6 years ago – I don\’t want to get involved in the drama anymore so I am glad I have a good excuse. Her husband will just have to handle it himself. 

7 thoughts on “Just a basic person

  1. Anonymous August 17, 2021 / 12:24 am

    I always liked the girls with glasses…but then I though braces were cute too.


  2. Anonymous August 17, 2021 / 12:26 am

    I'm glad you have a good excuse. I know you weren't looking forward to that, and you've already crossed that bridge yourself.I've worn glasses since second grade, so I'm use to them too. My sister recently had cataract surgery and is thrilled with the results.


  3. Anonymous August 17, 2021 / 12:34 pm

    Steve and I had the lens replacement surgery a few years ago. Before the hysteria. I'm so glad. I do and I don't like it. We both still have to wear readers but at least it's saving us hundreds of dollars every year in eyeglasses. I think they told us the same 3 options. I chose distance so eyeglasses won't get in the way of my rifle scope. So sorry you had a parent that was toxic. I did too. My adopted Dad. Gee whiz he was vitriolic, hateful, cruel, vindictive, vulgar and could be dangerous. I learned early how to avoid him and tried to not engage him in any conversations. It took me years of Church therapy and trusting Jesus to stop hearing those angry words in my mind. God healed my heart and I praise Him for that. And I wish you could see your great niece and nephew. It's sad, that, but I understand about not trying anymore. It causes too much grief to keep getting shot down.I hope the fires have quit and it's cooling off for y'all. I know you're eager to have this summer over. It's been a long one. Hope the HVAC man showed up and could help.Blessings. xx


  4. Anonymous August 17, 2021 / 4:42 pm

    I had braces and the boys called me \”railroad tracks.\”


  5. Anonymous August 17, 2021 / 4:42 pm

    That's good to hear


  6. Anonymous August 17, 2021 / 4:43 pm

    Fire and smoke is as worse as I have ever seen it. They say it won't stop till the winter – the fires are that big. Today we have wind which is not good.


  7. Anonymous August 17, 2021 / 10:23 pm

    Nothing wrong with glasses many look good in glasses


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