Overhauling ME

Friday I went in to see the surgeon about my shoulder. I had an image done a week earlier and I read where the findings showed no rotator cuff injury. I almost canceled the appointment – I figure why should I go, waste my time and his.  It must be all in my head. I kept the appointment. I met the Doctor and asked him, \”after reading the report now what since it showed no rotator cup injury?\” He surprised me when he answered back,

\”Not necessarily.\” 

So he performed a strength test on both my arms – and clearly, my left arm is stronger than my right arm. Something is not right. He said he still suspects a rotator cup injury so I am waiting for MD Imaging to schedule me with another test. I can\’t remember what kind. Not all rotator cup injuries require surgery which of course I am hoping for. I really don\’t want to have to go under the knife again. 

Tomorrow I go to the ophthalmologist – I believe he is going to measure my eyes for the lens…and then schedule me for the cataract surgery. I really can\’t wait to be able to see clearly again. I\’m told it only takes like 10 minutes and you are awake for the actual procedure. Amazing. 

I am not telling my kids any of this. The last time I told them something, they said, \”Wow Mom what is going on with you?\” I felt it was said in a judgmental spirit – I could be wrong. My boys have always believed that their mom could do anything. They are in denial that I am getting old – and can\’t do as much as I used to. In a way, so am I. I refuse to believe I will not be able to climb Mt. Whitney one day or swim laps in a pool or go kayaking. I refuse to believe at age 67 – I am done. This is just an overhaul period of my life. 

ANYWAY, I\’m not going to tell them until everything is done and over with. They don\’t get it. I waited for a lot of these procedures until my MediCare kicked in at age 65. The first thing I had to do, got my knee replacement or else I would be limping around or possibly sitting in a wheelchair. Then the pandemic and the medical profession were pretty much shut out from performing elective surgeries. Yes, even a knee replacement, cataract surgery, and rotator cup surgeries are considered elective. I don\’t \”have to\” have it done. I could just live with blurred vision and unable to lift a napkin – for the rest of my life. I choose to fix it. 

So I am playing catch up – I am hoping after this year I will have many years of smooth sailing…and maybe, just maybe I will attempt to climb Mt Whitney with my sons and my husband before I am 80 years old. Notice I didn\’t say, complete it. 


Yesterday we drove over to Camping World and looked around for an exhaust fan for the trailer. It didn\’t have one before. 

Picked up some indoor lighting 

But totally could not resist this doormat to go outside the step. We have a black lab and it was perfect. 

The husband has framed up the roof – tomorrow he buys the thin plywood for the roof and the styrofoam insulation. He just needs one day to be able to get out there and do this – the air has been upwards toward 500 AQI. It\’s frustrating for him. Plus of course, the heat. 
Last night I had a good talk with Char about the vaccine. She has terrible anxiety and sees a therapist.  So I encouraged her to talk this over with her Doctor on Wednesday. She agreed. I told her to write down all her questions. Now mind you, she has a learning disability as well as high anxiety about everything. She usually doesn\’t make informed decisions – she is ruled by her emotions.  She said she likes her doctor and trusts her. So I am hoping and praying, she does the right thing. I do worry about her. The scuttlebutt around town is that many of those like Char might lose their jobs if they do not get vaccinated because they are federally funded. She would still get her SSDI – she just wouldn\’t be working at the thrift store. 
It\’s always something. 

9 thoughts on “Overhauling ME

  1. Anonymous August 15, 2021 / 10:21 pm

    I messed up my rotator cuff years ago. It pretty much healed itself, but I can't throw an 90 mph fastball anymore…I can lift a napkin. Never could reach home plate, never mind 90 mph.The eye surgery, first thin I noticed was how brilliant colors were.


  2. Anonymous August 15, 2021 / 10:51 pm

    I hope they find the issue with your shoulder and that you don't need surgery. You'll be a new woman when you get these things fixed – and will be able to swim and climb again!I like the new mat and am enjoying the camper updates!


  3. Anonymous August 16, 2021 / 1:44 am

    I hope Char gets the vaccine. It's good that you're taking care of your health. My body is going to hell in a handbag.Love,Janie


  4. Anonymous August 16, 2021 / 7:04 pm

    I hope Char’s therapist can allay her fears for her health. I don’t agree with Char not being able to do her job because she does not have the vaccine. There are exceptions to every rule. Good luck with your shoulder. I am so careful with mine. I am feel the rust. Lol


  5. Anonymous August 16, 2021 / 9:54 pm

    I'm looking forward to the new me


  6. Anonymous August 16, 2021 / 9:54 pm

    I could bypass getting that door mat. Too cute.


  7. Anonymous August 16, 2021 / 9:55 pm

    Let me guess – you're waiting for your MediCare to kick in? That's what I did.


  8. Anonymous August 16, 2021 / 9:55 pm

    Oh yeah I know that \”rust\” feeling.


  9. Anonymous August 16, 2021 / 10:35 pm

    As we age we need an overhaul if not a whole reset, well I do…………..


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