I have been in my own little world of late – mostly concerned with my brother and my own situation. I made some progress yesterday – I still hadn\’t heard back from the Pulmonary specialist so I decided to do it myself. I investigated some of the Specialists in my city and decided on Dr. L. Medicare said I don\’t need a referral so I called them directly to arrange for an appointment. They told me they only accept referrals – so I called my primary Dr and at first, the front desk gal (you know how some of them can be) gave me some lip, about me having to come in to see Dr. B. I told her I have already been in to see him a week ago. So she took down my information and checked and told me they sent the referral, on 10/30. Okay, so I called back Dr, L\’s office and the gal there checked and yep, you guessed it – NO REFERRAL. So annoying. I called back Dr. B\’s office and they had already left for their 2-hour lunch. Finally, I called Dr. B\’s office and told the gal (who sounded like this was such an imposition) that they needed to re-fax it over. I gave her the fax number but just the way she sounded, I got the idea, she did not write it down. So today, I will check over at Dr. L (Pulmonary Dr) to see if they have received it.
The same thing happened when I was waiting for my referral to the surgeon for my knee replacement. I ended up, picking my own, and fortunately, they did not need a referral.
If they haven\’t received the referral again today, I will then go back to DR. B\’s office and see if I can hand deliver it to Dr. L\’s office. Come on, this is crazy.
I admit I am pushing this along because I have quite a morbid imagination at times. I read too much, take in too much information that might not even be for me. I am feeling better today, although in the last 2 days I have been coughing and out of breath. I do believe the mind can mimic symptoms and I am hoping and praying, that is the case with me. Hey when it comes to a terminal illness, I don\’t mind if I am wrong!
Meanwhile, I did tell my son Foodie. He was like, \”Okay Mom, get going to the doctor to rule it out.\” He didn\’t freak out or anything. That\’s what I like and why I chose to tell him over my other son, Navy. He\’s my baby and I believe he might get mad and I just need more information for him. Foodie deals with these issues at his care facility. So he does know about Pulmonary Fibrosis. I feel really good after telling him. He told me if I need a second opinion, to go to UC Davis Hospital and that is an option for later down the road.
My husband is kind of quiet – maybe he just is waiting to hear more concrete information than what I am telling him. That\’s fair. He just doesn\’t want to discuss it and that kinda pisses me off. Everyone handles things differently. I am one, who needs to talk – I need to hash and rehash everything. So if it goes to where there is something wrong, I will get into therapy – or blog several times a day. Ha!
I do feel the loss of my sister and my 2 best friends who have all passed. They were my emotional support. I realize I haven\’t made any really good friends that even come close to what we had. They were there for me when I went through my divorce, my mom\’s suicide, etc. So I will blog and just get out everything that is in me.
So for right now, I am feeling great. Last night I smeared Vicks on my chest and my back – I could feel that warmth and I slept like a baby. So for today, I feel like while I still need to check this out, it seems like maybe it is just a virus or bacterial infection and maybe I just need anti-biotics. That it is not the terminal lung diseases I am reading about in regard to lung scarring. I am hoping that I have just gone off my morbid deep end, and just need the facts to rule it out once and for all and get on with my life.
From My House – For the homemaking side of me