Another day inside. Our morning routine of sitting on the patio, listening to our waterfall, watching the birds, dodging the hummers, and playing fetch with Laydee is sidelined until we can have some fresh air once again. The air is \”unhealthy\”. I walked outside briefly and sat in one of the chairs and a small plume of ash was dispersed onto my clothing. That\’s it – no can do. Back inside.
My thinking – why risk my lungs to all of this and plus with C-19, if I should get it, I want to give my lungs a fighting chance. I do see some of my elderly neighbors out walking their dogs and while they are wearing c-19 masks they really should be wearing the N-95\’s. Back in March, I had the insight to put away our N-95\’s, so we wouldn\’t be using them – just in case of a fire/smoke. We have about 30 left.
About a year and a half ago, both my husband and I had the respiratory flu that we couldn\’t shake. Since then, I still feel mildly congested in my chest. When all this COVID stuff is over, I want to go in and get a chest x-ray. I\’m also wondering if that is why I have started to snore…
Speaking of snoring – this is the craziest thing. I don\’t seem to snore when my lab, Laydee sleeps beside me. I know I love sleeping with her. She is a cuddly bear. My husband, who really didn\’t want to sleep every night with the dog,m has had to admit, that when she is with me, I don\’t snore. My very own snore therapy dog! The last couple of nights, I don\’t snore because I have been clenching my jaw and grinding my teeth. I wake up and my jaw is sore from the clenching. I don\’t sleep like a baby anymore.
You know, when you get so bored out of your mind, as I am – even when you have things you could do, you just don\’t have the motivation to do it. It\’s a catch 22. Food doesn\’t even taste good. We did take out Mexican last night. I need spice and heat and something for my taste buds to grasp onto and yell out \”Ole.\”
I\’m thinking about suggesting to the husband about taking a drive – the question is where? I don\’t want to be anywhere near a fire.
I have to mentally fight this fog I am in. I just wish I could go to sleep and then wake up when life is normal again. Then again, what will normal look like? I don\’t think I adapt to change very well.