Ash, smoke, lungs, snoring, boredom, taste-buds and change

Another day inside. Our morning routine of sitting on the patio, listening to our waterfall, watching the birds, dodging the hummers, and playing fetch with Laydee is sidelined until we can have some fresh air once again. The air is \”unhealthy\”. I walked outside briefly and sat in one of the chairs and a small plume of ash was dispersed onto my clothing. That\’s it – no can do. Back inside. 

My thinking – why risk my lungs to all of this and plus with C-19, if I should get it, I want to give my lungs a fighting chance. I do see some of my elderly neighbors out walking their dogs and while they are wearing c-19 masks they really should be wearing the N-95\’s.  Back in March, I had the insight to put away our N-95\’s, so we wouldn\’t be using them –  just in case of a fire/smoke. We have about 30 left. 

About a year and a half ago, both my husband and I had the respiratory flu that we couldn\’t shake. Since then, I still feel mildly congested in my chest. When all this COVID stuff is over, I want to go in and get a chest x-ray. I\’m also wondering if that is why I have started to snore…

Speaking of snoring – this is the craziest thing. I don\’t seem to snore when my lab, Laydee sleeps beside me. I know I love sleeping with her. She is a cuddly bear. My husband, who really didn\’t want to sleep every night with the dog,m has had to admit, that when she is with me, I don\’t snore. My very own snore therapy dog! The last couple of nights, I don\’t snore because I have been clenching my jaw and grinding my teeth. I wake up and my jaw is sore from the clenching. I don\’t sleep like a baby anymore. 

You know, when you get so bored out of your mind, as I am – even when you have things you could do, you just don\’t have the motivation to do it. It\’s a catch 22. Food doesn\’t even taste good. We did take out Mexican last night. I need spice and heat and something for my taste buds to grasp onto and yell out \”Ole.\” 

I\’m thinking about suggesting to the husband about taking a drive – the question is where? I don\’t want to be anywhere near a fire. 

I have to mentally fight this fog I am in. I just wish I could go to sleep and then wake up when life is normal again. Then again, what will normal look like? I don\’t think I adapt to change very well. 

10 thoughts on “Ash, smoke, lungs, snoring, boredom, taste-buds and change

  1. Anonymous August 22, 2020 / 7:16 pm

    I made the mistake to walk my dogs every morning when there was a fire close by in 2012. My lungs haven't been the same since. So, boring as it may be, staying indoors may be the best thing.


  2. Anonymous August 22, 2020 / 8:20 pm

    I know all to well about having to get out and about…taking a ride etc. I am so busy trying to find a job…and at this point, we are resigned to the fact we will have to move.


  3. Anonymous August 23, 2020 / 4:17 am

    I think we are getting some of the smoke from the California fires and we have an air quality alert. It has to be worse there for sure. Best advice is to stay inside.Betty


  4. Anonymous August 23, 2020 / 1:22 pm

    It's hard enough to fight the depression dealing with the Covid but to add poor air quality due to a fire? Well, all I can say is hang in there! It's bound to get better, right?


  5. Anonymous August 23, 2020 / 10:34 pm

    I am so pleased to read this , wy I d on't know I just am maybe I am going nuts


  6. Anonymous August 23, 2020 / 11:53 pm

    You're right. I think the fires we had here in 2018 might have done some damage to our lungs as well.


  7. Anonymous August 23, 2020 / 11:55 pm

    I hope you find a job soon.


  8. Anonymous August 23, 2020 / 11:57 pm

    I'm sure it is. Check out and You you pan out to see the us map, you can see where the bad air is going.


  9. Anonymous August 23, 2020 / 11:58 pm

    This too shall pass.


  10. Anonymous August 23, 2020 / 11:59 pm

    I am so happy you are pleased, Jo-anne. Yeah I think you're going nuts like the rest of us.


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